Thursday

Stealing quotes and adding thoughts

I just read another blogger's post about happiness and choosing to be happy or not, and one thing Eat Move Write wrote really made me think.

She said "Maybe you have to try to remember that you’re not 343 pounds anymore, that you’re not the girl that nobody wants anymore."

While I was 260 instead of 343, I think the point is that I too have a hard time with that mentality. There are days that I look in the mirror and see the girl who couldn't fit in. I see fat everywhere, even though it's probably still there in most places, there is much less fat. I still see the imperfections and think that everyone else sees them too. 

Even though I have stretch marks as physical scars from my heavier days, those don't bother me. It's the mental scars that still get to me and make me question myself.  Deep down, I know that I'm not the same girl that nobody wanted way back then, but sometimes she gets back under my skin and just needs a good kick in the ass.

3 comments:

Liz said...

I think that maybe you saw a different person than other people did.

There were people that wanted you, wanted to be around you, and thought that you fit in with them just fine. Maybe they weren't the people you wanted to fit in with, but that's a different issue. Your weight never defined who you were to me.

Denise said...

Yes, I completely agree with Liz! You are 1000% more confident and comfortable with yourself now BUT that was all there before it just had to be nurtured and uncovered.

Sarah said...

Aww thanks ladies. I know you both knew me as both people, but I think there are a lot of issues that I never really dealt with and now that I'm in a much happier place in life I can deal with them and get rid of them for good.